Are You Happy Now ??I am so angry at my husband right now for messing up our lives, destroying the life we had planned for us and our kids, killing our dreams and our hopes, by doing something so stupid and hurtful.
Maybe thing were just going too good and he just had to mess it up :(.....
On Tuesday of this week in front of our 5 year old daughter he threatened me with a knife and then proceeded to hit me, throw me, strangle me in front of her. After it was all over I asked him why?? why would you do something like this to me, after all I have sacrificed for our family. WHY??
Now I am stuck in a country where I have no family and no support system. I have no income ( my first job in this country is starting in June) I have a 5 year old and a 1 year old. I'm in a town where there is no public transport system, I don't have a car. I am trying to take it one day at a time and hope I don't crash.
Its getting overwhelming now :(.
He was arrested, his family rushed up here to bail him out, I now have an order of protection so he can't come near me, which in a way helps and hurts because I have no one to help me with the kids I can't even use the bathroom by myself, I have to take the two of them with me.
His mother calls me with her sarcasm about how she hopes he goes to jail, because then I would be happy, and I would get everything free from the state, never realized my goal in life was to be a welfare mom. I despise him and his family so much right now. Really do I look like I am happy? I have to listen to my 5 year old tell me "mom I could have taken him out for you"..she told the cps case worker she was mad and sad.
At this moment in time if he was in front of me I would be the one going to jail because I want to hit him over the the head with a 2 by 4 and scream THANK YOU THANK YOU for screwing up my life and the lives of our children.
I HATE YOU SO MUCH NOW
Are you happy now????