Still Alive

I met my ex husband and thought he was a wonderful person,we got married had a son,and my entire life went downhill.he started smacking me in the mouth,i thought we could talk and resolve the problen in my mind.it just got worse from there.the man I married was a drug addict and I had no idea what was going on.i believed every word he said and I thought everybody who tried to tell me other wise was lying.to this day I still look over my shoulder.i have ptsd,i will never trust anybody because of the things I had to deal with.my ex cheated on me constantly.but he would also get high he would hit me with his fist.i had surgery because of broken bones in my face that dident heal right because I was to ashamed to go to the dr when he beat me up.he was doing cocaine,heroine among other things selling drugs.i finally got tired of trying to help,so I left.and have moved from state to state ever since because he always finds me and im always afraid.ill never be comfortable or feel safe.i hope someone reads this and I hope it helps.always keep in mind no matter what you can make it.there are people who can help you.