Making A List? Of Horrible Things?

I could make a list of events in my past, but it'll only put me in a bad place.  One of my coping skills is to only deal with it 1 piece at a time or it becomes too overwhelming.  If your interested, you might find some of it in my stories.

Having a "difficult" past, I struggle with relationships.  I feel a loss from not having a life-long partner.  I've tried, too many times.....I just can't handle the emotional intimacy that comes from that kind of dynamic in a relationship.  I'm close to dear friends of many years.  They carried me while I became stronger.  20 yrs of being there for me brought them close to my heart.