Crazy

it is crazy hard to deal with being raped...sometimes i think it would be a ton easier if i didn't know who did it, and maybe if i was older it would be easier, there are so many expectations of a teenager, to be happy fun and care free.. and i was but now I'm stuck in a shell of fear and i never want to go anywhere in case i bump into him...oh how i hate living my life right now.

I praise every woman/man who have overcome this its HELL.
I need to get the motivation to get help but I've no idea where.. there's nowhere local. I think I need to help get over the blaming myself and my anxiety so maybe i can start going on nights out again..but the thought is petrifying he WILL be there not every night but i almost bumped into him once but luckily i hid further into a queue so i stayed anonymous but i shouldn't have to constantly be in fear.
oh im so confused...


i just... i dont know
gunsnrose gunsnrose
18-21, F
3 Responses Dec 15, 2012

resurrectionafterrape.org
Try this site it helps me alot as I am still being victimized. Stay strong! I'll pray for you. God bless!

I know how it feels to be terrified of running into him, but the best thing you can do for yourself is to not let him win. Don't let him have that power over you. Take a friend and ignore him, but don't hide. It'll take time to be able to do that, it takes an amazing amount of strength to stand up to them like that, but in the end, it's the best thing you can do. I wish you didn't have to go through this. No one ever should.

I'm so sorry and I hope thing start to get better.