Having A Hard Time

I was given a drug by someone I don't know and don't remember anything except one disgusting part of the rape, but I have some post-traumatic stress symptoms.  I work with a lot of men, and I feel so stupid when they enter my personal space I tense up even though these are people I've worked with for almost eleven years, and I know they wouldn't hurt me.  I have panic attacks from either getting nervous or really angry.  And then I feel guilty for feeling this way when other women have had it way worse than me!  Im a total mess.  

michelle31 michelle31
31-35, F
1 Response Feb 17, 2010

I had two years of counseling then finally stopped. I felt like I just wanted to forget about it, but am thinking of going back cause thats not working out too well.