Changed Everything...

It is still so hard to talk about. And if I could I would deal with it differently. I didn't say anything; didn't tell anyone until like a year later. My sister was there and I didn't want to scare her or her friends..plus I was embarrassed...all the obvious feelings. It was Spring Break 1998. These guys that we had hung out with all week long, decided to party with us the last night. Well, I guess as a prank they drugged my drink. All I can remember is getting sick and one of them taking me outside for some air. I was puking and couldn't stand up. I guess he got scared because he left me out there, and some dude came out of the crowd, said I was his girlfriend to people passing by, and whisked me off in a cab. There is a lot more to it of course, but that's it pretty much in a nutshell. It happened soo long ago. It was a BIG domino. Just toppled over everything..one domino at a time...it happened slowly at first and then started to pick up speed until I ended up in the hospital.

Fast forward to now.

I'm doing a lot better. I am not afraid anymore...I'm really F^%$ing pissed off!! LOL I write, do photography..well you can check out my profile. But I'm different. Ya know what I mean? I no longer seek happiness. I am seeking peace of mind and contentment. That would be very nice.

My life is a journey I continue to live to the fullest, even though stoopid memories may cramp my style at times.

Angelmused Angelmused
31-35, F
Mar 15, 2010