To Survive

It has taken me a long time to see it but I guess I could not handle it when it happened. I can not say at what moment I knew everything I had worked for was shattered. It seemed to culminate at the end of a dream at the end of a cul de sac... but it had started long before… deeply ingrained in the way we were all taught to live…to survive.

Today, I talked to someone I once considered a close friend. It seemed strange that we are now strangers after sharing our lives for so long in one way or another. There is a chasm I could never pass over that has widened with time.  Some part of me had always wished to find the bridge – the way to the other side and instead I found a way to quit trying…a way for me to survive.
jenvice jenvice
46-50, F
May 6, 2012