Unsure Of MyselfI trained to be a teacher in 2010-2011 and have just started my first year of full time teaching as I was doing part time work and other things last year.
I'm worried that i'm not up to the job as I seem to be struggling to keep on top of everything. I recently split up with my long term boyfriend and I think that may have had an impact although I don't want to blame that on my performance at work.
On a day to day basis i'm fine but it's things like lesson observations that I can't seem to perform well in. The rest of the team know this and I feel like I am being judged as a bad teacher. We also check each others marking and one teacher in particular whilst checking my work loudly announced in front of everyone that she didn't agree with the grade I had given to one of my students and continued to comment on how their work wasn't very good.
I just feel very low at the moment and i'm worried about whether I can cope with the job - I want to be successful and do not deal well with failure or criticism (which I know I must learn to). At the moment my self confidence is low and I don't think that's helping.
Does anyone have any advice or similar feelings?