Hiding Then, Hiding NowAbout 2 years ago, I decided to try wearing diapers again.
I didn't tell anyone, my parents, my friends, anyone.
I didn't even want to go try to buy them because, in the area that I live, I don't exactly have a low profile. So many people recognize me for both good and bad reasons, and I had a low chance of making it home with diapers without being noticed.
So I started improvising. I started out just making makeshift diapers from plain old toilet paper. I would just wrap it around and around until an entire roll or even 2 were gone. This worked until I had to pee, there was no way it would be able to hold it all. Even if it did, the toilet paper would start shredding with any movement if it got wet, so that was out. We had just gotten our puppy finally house broken so we didn't need the puppy training pads, I decided to try them out. I cut them into the shape of a diaper, sat down, and taped up the sides. This actually did work for a while. But there was a slight issue, the edges near the against the legs would often leak if I didn't change almost immediately after wetting. I remedied this by scrunching it together and applying tape before putting it on, so it would fit like a real diaper. This actually worked amazingly well!
I was able to use them multiple times, and wear them for longer periods of time.
But the problem was that they weren't very absorbent. Once used, it was basically filled with unabsorbed liquid like a plastic bag. I compensated for this by adding more absorbent things to it. I would stuff it with a pad of folded paper towels. This was finally the solution that I needed. But I ran into a different problem. With the puppy pads no longer needed (as far as anyone else knew) there wasn't a steady supply of them accessible to me without my buying more, which would quickly become apparent after the dog grew up, and my nosy neighbors would question why our full grown dog still needs training pads.
So I improvised yet again. I had the absorbent paper towels that were always in supply. But I needed something that could absolutely prevent it from leaking. Plastic trash bags. My mother always bought the odor-blocking trash bags, so they had an added bonus to them. They were strong, stretchy, didn't crinkle and make noise, blocked odor, and held everything in. Sweet bliss.
Now I am 18, still living at home until I get moving, and still wearing my home-made diapers. I am not incontinent, but I know it will only be a matter of time and that will come, too. Once I live in my own place, I can actually buy normal diapers and not have to worry about being seen. Can't wait for that!
Even now, I am wearing one as I prepare to go to bed. I have the house to myself, peace and quiet. I have already used this diaper, about 10 minutes ago, both types of the word "used" at that. But, I am still going to sleep in it. I will change myself once I wake up. I am almost sure to reuse it while asleep, maybe again of both types. I am completely incontinent while sleeping, which I consider a milestone, and a step away from full incontinence.