It's Not Easy

I've known anxiety has been an issue for me the majority of my life. I just started seeing a therapist who told me I had common symptoms of GAD (genralized anziety disorder). In  a way, I think it's almost comforting to know that it's not totally uncommon to feel the way I do, and that I can learn to control it. I get the deer-in-the-headlights sort of reaction in a lot of stressful situations. I had really bad separation anxiety when I was a little younger; it got to the point where I began getting physically sick and would throw up. I had night terrors when I was really little, too. Now, it's mostly just overracting to stuff. I have a lot of triggers and sometimes it feels like I'm stressed more than not. I worry that I'm not normal enough, that people I care about will die, and that if I don't live up to exspectations people will leave. Anxiety seems like it would be an easy thing to get over, since everyone has at least a little bit, but sometimes it gets so overwelming and painful that I don't know what to do. I just wish I could fall asleep without worrying that I won't wake up. And, sometimes, that seems like too much to ask.
marla5995 marla5995
18-21, F
Jul 15, 2010