Trying To Get Back On Track

Hi everyone. My name is James and I have been feeling down for about a year now. For as long as i can remember I have been a generally nervous kid. Before my depression kicked in I was very satisfied with my situation. I had no problem focusing in school and made straight A's my sophomore year. But a few bad things started happening and I got a little discouraged, but I was sure that I could get through these obstacles. Number 1: I lost a mentor. My football coach, who I looked up to and was a great mentor to me, moved to another school and my school hired a man who probably has an IQ of 25. He's hated by the community because he treats his players so poorly and every decision he makes is to benefit himself, not his football team. Number 2: My best friend's parents got a divorce so he ceased to be my friend and became a huge jerk. Number 3: I injured my leg and i was encouraged by both my doctor and my parents to keep playing football and ignore the pain (it still hurts!). These things really screwed up my situation and I just wanted things to go back to the way they were. I'm a senior now and bad things continue to happen. I recently received a possession of marijuana because it was in my car and one of my friends threw a firecracker out the window and a cop pulled me over and found his weed. I can't focus on school because I'm feeling so miserable all the time and my grades are suffering as a result. I'm angry at my parents because of this injury and my relationship with them is deteriorating. Nothing good is happening to me anymore!!! I feel like its my fault. Like if I could just get over this enormous hump in my life then could get back on track but I don't know what to do.
jamesbalagia jamesbalagia
18-21
2 Responses Jul 21, 2010

You need to give up marijuana, it's not such a good friend. Pray to Jesus, He's a true friend and you don't have anything to loose. Even if people say it's just a myth, when you really need Him, He's there and you feel His presence. We know life is generally a pain. For me, life in this world is a mess, but i don't wanna stop believing in God, it's the only thing that remain for me even if it's difficult sometimes. Let's help each over, i'm depressive too and i need to talk w/ people like me to find the way and the will of living.

James,<br />
My heart goes out to you and every other young adult on this site. I am praying for each and every one of you that God shines his light in your life and shows you comfort and peace. I have a son who is 17 and I think he is clinically depressed. He has been even talking about not wanting to live. As a parent, i beg you to talk to your parents and tell them how your feel. Sometimes talking about the issues really do help. I will continue to pray for you. Just know you are loved!