Just Wanna Leave.....I have always struggled with life, whenever I would try to ask for help or tell anyone how I felt they wouldn't understand and think that their was something wrong with me and leave, I tried telling my parents but they never listen to me and laugh, I just feel alone and sad and think that I just have no life. I really don't understand why i'm alive... and I don't think I ever will, life gets so cruel and confusing and I just break down and cry all day and night, I just feel that their is nothing left for me and that i'm a screw up, i'm always sad, lonely, tired and just so weak, I never though that emotional pain and abuse could be so painful . usually when i'm sad I slit my wrist and just lay down to calm myself down or take a warm back and just cry but of course my pain always comes back, being sad isn't fun at all and I really never enjoy crying and just feeling lonely. their is no reason for me, I usually look at the clouds wishing I was their so I could just be at peace, my one wish would be that I could just fall asleep and never wake up so I would finally enjoy myself in my own dreams.
Fezzii 18-21, F 21 Responses 8 Oct 20, 2011