One day, I hope this will all go away. One day I wish that I will wake up feeling... Happy. My name is Rae Jay and I am a teen with depression. What could be so bad that I have this tiring, annoying, restless disease you may ask? Who knows. Maybe it's because I watched my mother be murdered in front of me. Maybe it's because I feel awful that my brother had to take so many beatings for me so that I wouldn't get hurt. Maybe it's because I have a realistic view of how life really is. But, I'm not only depressed, I'm also angry, and short-tempered, and unable to project my emotions. Everyone thinks that I don't have a heart, but I do. I've helped four people not commit suicide this year alone. I have some good news though, I might be getting better. I have never been on medication, but I found something that makes me... smile. What is this something you may ask? It's LaCrosse. It's a sport that I love. I love how aggressive I can be in it. I love working to get better at it. It makes me happy. But, I know that it will never fufill my happiness completely, but I'm content with it now. Maybe, one day, I'll be 100% happy. I hope.