One Day

One day, I hope this will all go away. One day I wish that I will wake up feeling... Happy. My name is Rae Jay and I am a teen with depression. What could be so bad that I have this tiring, annoying, restless disease you may ask? Who knows. Maybe it's because I watched my mother be murdered in front of me. Maybe it's because I feel awful that my brother had to take so many beatings for me so that I wouldn't get hurt. Maybe it's because I have a realistic view of how life really is. But, I'm not only depressed, I'm also angry, and short-tempered, and unable to project my emotions. Everyone thinks that I don't have a heart, but I do. I've helped four people not commit suicide this year alone. I have some good news though, I might be getting better. I have never been on medication, but I found something that makes me... smile. What is this something you may ask? It's LaCrosse. It's a sport that I love. I love how aggressive I can be in it. I love working to get better at it. It makes me happy. But, I know that it will never fufill my happiness completely, but I'm content with it now. Maybe, one day, I'll be 100% happy. I hope.
FearMeImShort FearMeImShort
18-21, F
2 Responses May 28, 2012

Thank you very much ma'am

I have the utmost respect for you, It must have been awful. For someone who's been threw so much to have hope of getting better Is an Insperationto others to have hope, I hope one day you're satisfied with your life and achieve your dream of waking up happy, I really do. keep on going strong love!