If I Could Live.Hello... I'm 13 and I've been depressed for 2 years, nobody knows this at all, but the Teachers think something is mentally wrong with me.
I don't know why I feel so depressed...
Well i do, but sometimes i just keep crying for no apparant reason.
I want to help everybody in the world and all the people who are suffering and it makes me depressed.
I keep having nightmares and hallucinationsof a man who is going to kill me, he had gorged eyes and his fingernails are bloody and extremely long.... He's so tall and he has massive ears.... He's killed me in so many ways, like Rape, Torchure, Stabbing etc.
I hate going to sleep and I dread it every night.... Sleep is the only peace I can get.... And now it has been taken away from me!
I have a very bad skin condition called Eczema, (Research on Google+see Google images) It's extremely extremely bad.... People always look at me and laugh at me and things, I get bullied at school for being Ugly, i feel alone... So so alone.. I tried to tell my mum but she said i think too much about myself and I'm just pretending and i shouldn't get things in my head... And that's only when i told her i was bullied... These were my exact words 'I got bullied' and she starts SCREAMING at me for being so self absorbed n things... I always feel firey and as though hell is inside me. I feel ugly and feel as though all I'm good for is itching from this crappy illness! ALL I DO IS CRY AND CRY AND CRY! I always think about suicide... And i feel afraid to hold a Knife because i know i will kill myself.
Please Help Me.
An EP User 2 Responses 0 Jan 19, 2013