I Feel So Alone
About 10 months ago my parents split up, it was shocking i had not seen this coming at all. My parents never even fought, it was so unexpected. i had people helping me through it my sister, my two best friends. My sister and i went to one cousleing session, i didnt really talk much and my sister is okay from the split so the psychologist thought i was too. i just dont want to talk to a total stranger about it, or anyone for that matter. i started to just try and be okay with it and it worked. when school let out for the summer i started seeing my sister and my friends less and less. i would have nothing to do all day. just sit at home watch tv youtube. i masked my pain for so long pretending to myself and everyone around me that i was happy to have all this time to myself, then i started not just being upset about being alone but about my parents seperation again. i felt depressed about everything, but i would only feel bad for myself for a few hours then i would go back to pretending i was okay. i dont want the people around me to think im hurting because i dont want them to hurt. but the feeling of being so alone is happening more and more often. I know it dosnt help watching these fake shows about how people are happy, and seeing clelbrities lives how great they are, but i feel as if its the only thing keeping me sane. i just finally admited to myself days ago that i know im depressed and i know its just going to get worse when my sister leaves to go to college in just weeks, and to tell you the truth i dont know what to do. i cant tell anyone.