What To Expect At CouncelingI just thought I would post an update to my story and what has happened since my mom found my girl clothes right before xmas.
The days seemed to drag on and when ever I wanted to be left alone it seemed like I was dragged into some sort of activity with someone else. My mom finally said she was worried about me being depressed. So today we went to a family councelor.
I go in with the councelor without mom. A older female in a homey looking office with a lit scented candle on the coffee table. The counselor asked why I think my mom brought me there and I told the lady what happened with mom finding my girl clothes and that my mom wanted to fix me so I could just be a guy. We talked for about a half hour. Questions like
When did you first begin dressing as a gir? ( I think I was 5 )
Do you not like who you are as a boy? ( I like who I am. but I am both male and female )
Do feminine things other than clothing make you feel comfort? ( I used to have a baby doll for a short time and that felt good)
Do you get sexually arroused by the act of dressing as a girl? ( I get sexually arroused even if I don't dress as a girl but Yes I spose)
Then we talked about the future and what I wanted and expected which was mainly to be left alone. The councelor was very easy to talk to by this time because she seemed very understanding. So I asked her why some people like mom have a hard time with me. The counselor then told me that my mom didn't bring me there to be fixed but she was the one asking for help.
Then was mom's turn to go in alone while I tried straining to hear what was said beyond the door. About 10 minutes later the door opened and the counselor told me to come in. Mom was smiling but her eyes were watered and I still don't know how to read that in her face. The councelor said we were both normal but we had a barrier that caused tension between me and my mom and we had assignment to try for the next 2 weeks and then come back.
Mine was to spend time with mom and do a project together ( Mom suggested I help her with coupons. She is a super coupon freak. We will see...)
Moms assignment was to read a small book named Coping With Living and to give me a gift of something feminine to show acceptance of the other me. Thats when mom said she had already bought me a package of panties because the ones I had came from other people. So the ball is in my court.....
Anyways we go back in 2 weeks and I already feel better.