This Is My Story ! Give Me Ur Views ! And Be Free To Ask Or Advise :)well, I am a boy 18yp, every one is expecting me to be straight cuz that what I really pretend to look.. but the truth is shared with myself.. with my mirror.. we can say im a crossdresser but only in silent, in secret. whenever i find the chance I go and wear my mom's or sister's bra and underwear and dresses and make my face up and look at the mirror I realize that I was created to be a woman not a stupid boy.
well there is an event I need to tell u ! it may be the cause of all this //
when I was 14 yo. i went to my aunt's house thinking that she was there, but I only found my cousin who is 2year older than me, that day he was so nice with me I didnt know why.. when he was sitting on the chair I was wondering where I can find a chair and he said come sit on my leg i thought he was kidding but he said Im serious; and I did I didnt expect anything bad, and then he said lets watch some videos I dowloaded I accepted and he shows me many pornvideos of shemales and ladyboys getting ****** , honestly I loved it, but I felt something wrong cuz suddenly I felt his hand touching slowly my ***.. i was wearing a short. I acted like I didnt feel anything then he did it more clearly, I said what are u doin he said hold on u will understand. then he moved his finger till he touched my hole I felt like freezing .. my arms and foot were trembling ! he put me on the floor and he asked me to touch his **** I didnt understand yet.. I was lloooking at him.. then I did. it was huge and I felt like Im taking a big piece of meat and desire to eat it I kissed it and licked it he asked me to do it and I did he also sucks me on my *** and till I said please try your **** in my *** now, he said no I won't your mom will know. and he just wear his pant again and let me on the floor I was like a dog wanting food ! I asked him once again to put it in my *** cuz I feel I want it ! but he refused and I went to the bath I was crying so bad. and I took shampoo and started putting my finger into my ***..
next day I asked my mom to let me go there and sleep in my aunt's house she accepted ! at the night I went by his side again and asked him to **** me , and he did, I felt in heaven, and after that ! he did it to me almost everyday and no one knows it..
when I reached 15yo we didnt meet anymore and he thinks now im straight one and all we have done was just for fun. but the truth is something different
well now im 18yo! I always put my fingers into my ***.. my *** looks like a female ***. and I like spanking it alone, dressing like a woman and making up.. but all in secret cuz mmy society won't accept it . so Im waiting for who will understand me and do it again in secret cuz I feel burning in front of my mirror.
---if there is some one wants to give me advices or talk to me, he can inbox me, and I will answer ----