Panty Couple

I'm 19 years old and I've always loved girl stuff since I was little. I always wear panties, paint my toe nails pretty colors and my fingernails clear. I curl my eyelashes and as a hobby and free time I make music, hula hoop, and dance with my hips to music lol. I love leggings, tights, skirts, dresses, and really girly things! I had a girlfriend which I was with 4 years and she would let me wear her panties because she would leave them at my house when we made love but at first she used to think was weird but then got used to it I guess. When i had told her I like girly things and stuff and she said it was a bit weird but then I had told her I like heels, skirts, tights, garters, etc. for myself she broke up with me, I was hurt because we had plans to get married and move in and we promised each other we'd always be together no matter what and she left me:( And now that I think about it it's going to be hard finding someone who accepts me the way I am. Sometimes I even think I should be with another guy even tho I'm not gay buy maybe it's the only way I'm going to be happy and be accepted the way I am. I know there's girls that don't mind guys who like girl things but I do not know any and it will be weird to ask every girl I meet if they like boys that like to wear women's clothing and girly things.. Maybe meeting someone online but I get scared:( What do y'all think?:)