Hi guys if you haven't read my other storys then I will just start at the begining. So I always felt different about my self that I was more femimin. So I started to crossdress and I felt so happy about myself. Then later I became trandgender. But during the summer of 8th grade I told myself that I can't keep ondoing this and that I was a freak. So I started bodybuilding so I can erase my perfect girl body. But 6 months after that I want to be a girl again. But now I have super large muscles. And I don't look like a girl anymore except for my face. And now idk on what to do. I'm 14 if I am transgender I want to live my life at a young age as a girl. So I really need someone to talk to about this.