I Kissed A Girl And Now I Can't Stop Thinking About Her!

So I kissed a girl and I liked it.... can't help thinking I liked it a little too much.

If you have read my other stories you will know I have been having and on-going situation with a girl that I really like! To me she is perfect, I never thought I could feel this way about someone, when all my friends were getting boyfriends I could never understand what they were feeling. But now I do. I see her every day; she's one of my best friends which makes it even harder! I don't know why it's her that I've fallen for...but to me she is so perfect. Blonde wavy hair, brown/green eyes, she's got a wicked smile too which can't help but make me happy. Like literally I find her so funny and she can always cheer me up if I'm having a 'bad day'. When I sit next to her in class and we're just chatting away I sometimes just think to myself how beautiful she is, I look at her face and her eyes and her lips that I just want to kiss so badly. You know that urge? It's so hard sometimes to stop myself playing with her hair or touching her in some way. I know that sounds strange to anyone that has never felt this kind of attraction to a person but I honestly have to stop myself. It's not like she isn't the same, if you've read my other stories then you'll know that there have been quite a few occasions where we have ended up kissing, falling asleep together cuddling. The last time this happened was only a couple of weeks ago at a party, we just started kissing, oh it was so good! We were both a little drunk but it was still hot...her lips on mine. This is kind of where I struggle, we have these nights, we go out together and call them 'dates' and we say they're cute and romantic but at the end of it all I'm left just as confused! She still talks about guys in a romantic sense, and I do too… So we can be sat there having a conversation about these guys we find ‘hot’ and I’m thinking to myself… what am I doing? I want you. I don’t know what to do, I value her friendship so much that I’m worried she won’t feel the same…. Any advice welcome, or just your general thoughts on the situation…be as honest as you like!
Sky17 Sky17
18-21, F
2 Responses May 9, 2012

i'm also inlove with my friend and it really makes it harder if she is your friend. It's not that easy to tell her you know

Yes. we have the same things.... I love her, she's my friend.. She knew I'm gay but I still cant say I love her.............. wtf!!!!!!!!!!!