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My Life


  Middle school changed my life for a lot of reasons. It’s where I had my first boyfriend, where I made all my friends, where I matured; it was a place where all my growing up happened. My life really started to change in 8th grade when I met a girl, a new girl named Delaney. She wasn’t like any other person in the world. She made me laugh and smile even when I was upset, she was the only person that could do that. As I started to get closer to her I started losing more and more of my so called friends. I didn’t realize it but I had started to gain feelings for my best friend. When we made it official on Facebook everyone knew the next day. All my friends looked at me like I was crazy, like I had 5 heads, like I was a disgrace to human nature. My teachers didn’t seem to care about me anymore. It was the hardest to tell my parents, my mother wasn’t so happy she didn’t really support me in the beginning, it’s not easy accepting that your daughters going out with a girl I guess? Till this day my mother supports me, even if I’m not with a girl. My father on the other hand grew apart from me; we haven’t been close since I came out. It’s like my father doesn’t accept his daughter, I do everything to try to make him happy. In high school I got bullied a lot; no person in the world seemed to understand me though. I would tell the principals in the school but they never did anything. My parents would come in the school to talk to them but all they said to us was “if she’s out about her sexuality then there’s nothing we can do about what people say to her.”I didn’t understand how the world could be so cruel and not want to help me. There were times I wanted to end my life because of the bullying. I was just the “lesbian” to everyone! As time went on I grew from my own experience. I learned that if the friends I used to have aren’t my friends now, then they were never good friends to begin with. I learned that the people in high school don’t even matter you most likely not going to see them when you get out. I learned I rather be me than anyone else in the world. I wouldn’t change anything about myself. I became stronger for myself and I did it all with the help of this girl. What we had wasn’t only a relationship, it was a lesson. A lesson well learned. At the end of the day it’s always going to be me against the world. But that’s okay because I know now that I’m a much stronger person than I was the other day. When I was a little girl I always imagined my life much different than this. I always wanted to know what it was going to be like when I was in high school, what I was going to look like, what I was going to be doing, and everything a young girl would think about. Never would I think my life would be like this, but I rather my life have a story with a happy ending then change my life for the people that can’t except me for who I am any day.
lovelylove11 lovelylove11 16-17 7 Responses Dec 1, 2012

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High school is high school and it always will be, those people dont matter, what matters is what you want and need, what do you want to do? what dreams or aspirations do you have? dont stop believing just because our attracted to the same sex! be strong and be beautiful! People will hate you, rate you, break you and shake you but how strong you stand in the end is what makes you. Good luck to you!

some people can be really horrible to others. your school could have done stuff ! *rages* it makes me mad that they did nothing to help stop that torment ! Im really really really proud of you for being able to stand up and say World this is what i am !
Contrats hun <3

You are courageous and you seem to have a pretty good handle on life. You should be proud of yourself..... and you have learned life's lessons pretty well...

its not easy

It's so good to see people that strong. It's hard not to care about what people think, I know, but it doesn't matter. That is wonderful that you learned a lesson from this relationship.

Hats off you and your spirit..

be strong sweetie