I Guess

I am socially awkward. When I talk about my issues, people say that I complain or worry too much. It seems to me that everyone wants me to be a better person. No matter what I do, or how good I do, most people are never satisfied with who I am. I meet the requirements of one level, then the people on the next level say I'm not good enough. I'm irritated, and tired of trying to make friends. Yeah, it sucks without friends, but if every person I try talking to ends up running in the end, why put myself through that pain knowing that it will eventually happen? Not having friends, and trying to make them. Not having friends is the lesser of two discomforts. It's what I SETTLE for, not what I PREFER. What I prefer seems to never be an option. I guess it's too much to ask to have true friends. I guess it's too much to ask to share life with people. I guess it's too much to ask for people to stick around when I tell them the truth even though that's what they told me they wanted. I guess it's too much to ask for people to allow me to be myself. Should I be fake? I guess it's too much to ask to not have people think I'm asking too much.
LawlessTranquility LawlessTranquility
26-30, M
Nov 26, 2012