I Feel Like A Third Wheel With My Best Friends
I have been best friends with my friend (lets call her sarah) for about 3 nearly 4 years now and last summer we started to hang about with another girl (lets call her alice). I have known alice since my first year in high school but have not really got very close with her, but sarah was in a lot of her classes over the past 2 years and so they got quite close. I would say we are all quite close now, but i just can't help feeling like a third wheel sometimes. They seem so much closer to each other than they are to me, they have jokes together that i don't know about and alice will tell sarah things that i don't know about. I mean i understand that i am not as close to alice as sarah is but it still hurts sometimes when they are sitting discussing something right in front of me and i have no idea what it is. I feel like people look at me and they also think that i am a third wheel and just follow my two friends around. I have spoke to sarah about this before a couple of times and she has said that she thinks me and her are a lot closer than she is to alice and that i shouldn't worry about it. I do worry though, nd what makes it worse is that sarah and alice are both a lot prettier and a little bit slimmer than me. Also they seem to go out a lot more together while i stay at home and study or have nothing to do. They do invite me out but only sometimes. They go to parties together and i don't get invited. But then at school we will all get along fine it's just at the weekends i don't always get to spend time with them because i don't have as much money as them to go out every weekend and they live a lot closer to each other. It takes me about 45 minutes to walk to there houses from my house whereas they are only 2 minutes away from each other. I am only a five minute drive but my mum works a lot and cannot always drive me. I don't know what to do to stop feeling like this. I don't think they make me feel like this intentionally but i am worried that they will just get closer and closer and then i will be left on my own. They are also both a lot more popular than me so i only have a couple other friends whereas they have loads. I just feel like they sometimes think i just tag along and that they don't really want me there, and i don't know what to do :( Sarah tells me that i am her best friend and that me and her are a lot closer blah blah blah but it doesn't feel that way and i just want to feel like i am no longer a third wheel, but i suppose three is a crowd isn't it? What can i do to stop feeling this way i hate it :( They went out together today without me as i didn't have any money. Sarah had said to me a couple of days ago that she and alice wouldn't go out if i didn't go with them today and se was begging me to go and when i said she couldn't they went any way. On the odd occasion when i do go out with them i feel like they have more fun when it is just them rather than with me as they always come back with really funny stories about things they did and when i am with them it's just normal. They also always text each other and talk to each other every day but they can go days without talking to me! Am i a third wheel or am i just being silly?