It's True ... It's Me.

I knew I was a girl when I was about 5 years old. I didn't like boy toys and boy games (war and such) but preferred playing dress up and playing with dolls. It never occurred to me that I was a boy. For sure I was a girl and I knew it.

The older I got the more I felt like a girls even though my outside shell didn't say it. Sometimes others saw who I really was and treated me as a girl. Several boys as I went through school are included in this group. I anxiously awaited puberty and my breasts rowing like other girls. I was disappointed, but I was till me. And some of the boys were always there for me.

When I was a pre-teen and a teen ager whether I dressed like this or like this i was treated mostly as the other girls were treated. Yes a few times I did wear a dress and heels and went out and I passed. Even then most of the time I wore baggy trousers and shirts to school to be incognito, so-to-speak. But friends knew and were really great.

Dates with boys for dinner out or ice cream, movies, or a day at an amusement park. Holding hands and kissing was exciting and made me feel the girl I knew I was. Wished I could have gone to the prom in a gown, but never made a prom (wasn't asked).

Life moves on.

After college it was hard as society expected certain things and I really tired to fit in, a a man. But it wasn't me and I was never happy with myself. I always wanted to wear dress and never anything else (still do), but life has a way of moving us somewhere all the time.

Don't get me wrong I love my children very, very, very much ... however I was unhappy with me.

Never took hormones though I am really really tempted to do so, even now. Puberty may have come late for me cause over the last few years my breasts are finally budding. A Cup right now, and I'm so happy.

Being a little older now, passing might be tougher. My face looks older, but my body is in okay shape and my skin is soft and smooth. The way I want it and hopefully a man would like it. I may not look this good today. But for the right man I sure would try!

As you know I am attracted to men very much so. As a woman I want to be held and kissed and taken by a man every day. It was wonderful kissing when I was young so now with years of the lack of it, I probably will not let him loose too soon.

Sometimes I stand in front of a mirror and I can see the woman looking back at me. It's wonderful.

What's ahead? Well I have my plan and it's not set in concrete ... yet. One day it will be. I will finally get to be whole and real.

Patience is hard right now as some things I want and I WANT THEM NOW!

I'm working on many things and some, like sex, are daily desires.