The "Princess In Me"

The years growing up as a trans gender child was totally alienating. I would never like to wish it upon any child that does not have the loving support of there family. My primary school experiences were okay not perfect, did'nt get to much hassles until the real years began (high school). Trying to focus on your education yet being verbally abused constantly was a nightmare. Yet trying to search for answers to what I had become, made it even more confusing, where do I start, who do I talk to and the big question "What am I".

I left home at 17 to start my soul searching, cut a long story short and now I am 34. I'm very proud of who I have turned out to be "Miss Talia Wilson". Over my life span I have been a Compulsive con artist, criminal, prisoner, prostitute and drug addict,drug dealer and alcoholic (I think I've named them all lol). I had tried suicide countless number of times but yet I am still here today. I was feeding from dumpsters and sleeping under Bridger's but yet I'am still here today with that burning desire to be someone "normal".

During this awkward period in my life there was still this burning desire inside me to be consider "normal" and part of the community. All I ever wanted in life was to be like everyone else, have goals, get married and have that knight in shining Armour come rescue me and maybe in the future have kids, yeah right lol.

I am the most happiest I have ever been in my life now. That had a lot to do with accepting who I was and the path that I choose in life to lead. It also had a lot to do with accepting my inner princess and letting that beautiful person inside of make come out instead of hiding her and being the way society thought acceptable for me to be.

Giving my inner princess the opportunity to be free and real to herself was the turning point in my life. I have everything I ever wanted in my life including the full sex change and the icing on the cake "My knight in shining Armour". I also have that loving family bond that I had been neglected of in the pass.

It has been a pleasant experience shearing my story and I hope it heals some hearts and seals some bridges. It's a very tough life out there growing up as a trans gender especially without the support of your family. But in order to live life to the fullest you have to be true to yourself and let that inner princess be released.

The past is the past. We all do things in life that we greatly regret but that's the path in life I choose to go down (thank goodness I saw the light lol). I have changed for the better and love living life the way I want to live it. That's grabbing the bull by it's horns and standing tall and smiling for being so fortunate for being fit, healthy and positive and real to "The Princess in Me" lol. 

Daniellea Daniellea
6 Responses Mar 1, 2010

There's always going to be those who disapprove of who and what we are Christal. The trick - and it's not and easy one I'll admit, is to not let them get to you or stop you.

i wish that all people around our life's would just let us be happy just like they are. you know?

It was bad enough growing up transgender but it was magnified by not discovering it until age 18. Growing up feeling like a mutant and not knowing why made me into a psychopath. I was about to do some crazy ****, like rob a gas station, but fortunately I discovered that I'm really the complete opposite of who I thought I was.

Dearest lillygal8880 thank you for reading my story and leaving your comment. We are all here for a short stay so we have to make the most of the time that we have to live our lives. That is learning to love ourselves and be true to who we are. There is always light at the end of a tunnel no matter what path in life you pick to walk down. I had a rocky road but that is the path I picked to walk down. I learnt the art of accepting who I was and loving myself. I tackle life with open arms and embrace each precious day I am fortunate to be here considering my rocky road in life. Keep smiling lol.

I am happy for you I am now fully coming to understand that I need to be a woman and am still looking for support in it. I wish I was as succesful as you.

Thank you for your kind reply. all the best for the future lol.