So Many Emotions And No One I Know Understands

Nine months ago I met A. He is a truck driver that delivered to my place of work. I would unload his trailer every day and talk casually. As time went on it turned into more in depth conversations...eventually flirting. I resisted his flirting for I figured he was "just another driver". A flirted heavily for 10 weeks before I gave in and gave him my number. Its been 9 months later and it has been awesome until now....he recently took a new job where he is out 3 weeks and home for a few days. I have never had jealousy or insecurity issues until now. He promises we will be ok and he will come home to me. I worry about all the "lot lizard" stories you hear. He says it takes a very strong women to be with a truck driver. This man and I have been bluntly honest with each other since day one so I really dont have any reason to doubt him. How do all you other women handle loneliness and insecurity? We have talked about him moving in with me but I know he is afraid I wont be able to handle this lifestyle so that is put on hold. I know if he didn't want to be with me he could walk away...but he says its all worth it and we will be ok. He has been very understanding of my issues and makes sure he calls about every 4-5 hours and keeps me posted on his whereabouts. I know this isn't going to be an easy relationship but i know I love this man with every inch of my heart and soul. I never believed in love at first sight until now. My family doesn't understand how I can "settle" for a man who is never home therefore talking to them is impossible.
christinewhite92 christinewhite92
4 Responses Jan 15, 2012

I have been married to a OTR Trucker now for five years. It is becoming unbearable. Not because I am insecure or jealous....he is the one. I work full time again and cannot ride along as I once did for a few months. He is having trust issues, I can say I have no desire to have anyone or anyones drama contaminate my life. In our case the role is reversed. I am ok with him being gone as long as he comes home to me eventually. The problem is....I deal with all my own, the house, the pets, the laundry....the tax issues, running here for this and here for that. Then the dramatic calls from him. I'm lonely, you would not believe what the mfer did when I wanted to deliver, I missed a good load, I can't believe they are doing this to me....and on and on and on....! I am growing tired of it. We can't even talk anymore because he is negative and angry all the time! Not sure if I can endure much more of this? I welcome any and all advice to get my man back to the man he used to be.

Same thing here. Engaged to a trucker who's gone for 2 weeks or more at a time. Just like you, I've never had insecurities until now, so I try to remember that he has to deal with the same feelings of not knowing what's going on back home. <br />
I try to be as supportive as possible and to stay busy with work and hobbies, but it does get hard when so much time goes by and they have a total other life out there on the road. <br />
Still trying to learn how to cope with missing someone so much. I keep hoping that my fiancee will eventually find a good paying local job where he can be home more often, that really does keep me going through the lonely times, the hope that someday things will be more normal and we can have more time together. <br />
So good to see that I'm not the only one going through these things. <br />
Wishing you the best of luck, hope it gets easier for you.<br />
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this lifestyle is hard. hobbies are a good thing to have. i keep busy and when i get to where i cant take it anymore i call my boyfriend and we talk it out. ive been with him and ive seen these lot lizzards and believe me you have nothing to worry about. i have this rountine when he shuts down he calls me and we talk for awhile and keep each informed on what happened that day so when he comes home its like hes been there all along. i send him pictures when i change my hair or move things around in the house that way he still has a sense of home when he does come in. its the little things that matter to them. it gets easier as time goes on and its something you will get used to... faith is key.

I know exactly how you are feeling. I have those same issues, and they are so hard to deal with when someone isnt physically there with you. I feel like your story is almost identical to mine. I worry all the time about the lot lizards. I think coping with the loneliness and missing him so much is one of the hardest things. I just try to keep busy, Ive found myself hobbies, and keep busy with work and school. I find thats the best thing, because if you sit and think about it, it will drive you nuts! I know not thinking about it is hard, almost impossible at times.<br />
I dont believe that you are settling, if you are happy then thats all that counts. From what you have said he sounds like a wonderful man, and if people arent in your shoes they will never understand.