Truck Driving Life Is Now My Life...

I have FINALLY found my Mr. Right! :) I have a 7 yr old son, I work full time and I enjoy being independent at dating a truck driver I thought would be perfect for me. We get to spend time together when he is home and i get my alone time and mom and son time while hes gone. Wow...I was wrong!!! I got news today that he will not be back this weekend for my work Christmas party, no big deal about the party but he is going to be gone for 5-6 more days then he thought :( I thought i was so strong but now that I have him in my life I hate every second that he is not with me. I want to be supportive for him and starting our life together. I am so happy with him but yet i feel so lonely at the same time. One would think that this gets easier but what I have experienced so far is the last time he left it was harder, is it because we are so new in the relationship and things are going so good that its so exciting i dont want to be apart from him and down the road it will get easier?? Or does it just continue to get harder? I think about the future and what it will be lilke when we have children...i wont be a single mom but it will feel like it. Ive already been there and done the single mom thing and its not easy. I found my Mr. Right but half the time i will still be the single mom. I hope that sharing stories with others and reading others stories will help me cope...tell me do you do it? How do you stay strong for the wonderful man in your life when you feel so alone every night when you go to bed by yourself knowing that your lover, best friend and the most important person in your life is 2,000 miles away from you?
JoesGirl03 JoesGirl03
26-30, F
1 Response Dec 4, 2012

I have been dating my boyfriend (Mr.Right) for over 2 1/2 years. We have pretty much always lived together. But about 3 months ago we moved into our first place together. The move for me has been difficult, I lived with my family before and I at least had my family's support and could talk to them when my boyfriend was asleep. Now I am really alone, except that I have my 4 year old daughter. (From a previous relationship). Honestly when we first started dating I would cry every time he had to leave. (Usually not in front of him) And there are still times I cry myself to sleep because I miss him so much. From my experience, it never gets easier.. Although my boyfriend has always said it would. Here lately it has been even harder. All I can think about is how I wish he was home to enjoy the simple things with me and my daughter. For us we have spoke about children and if we would like to have one together someday, and perhaps we will. But for now he is gone for 28 days and then home for 4-5 days. So having a child right now isn't an option. I already told him that there are certain things I want before having a child and I am already raising the one child I have by my self right now, so if we ever had a child he would HAVE to be home more. I refuse to have another child if I will be raising it alone. He would like to see his child grow up and help raise it when/if we ever do have a child. So at least we are on the same page. Being a full-time employee, mother and girlfriend is hard! My boyfriend and I talk on the phone constantly so it definately helps. Also I cuddle a body pillow at night, it is by no means the same as having him there but it is a little help. I stay strong because I know he is out there to make a better life for all of us. I know he misses me just as much as I miss him. This was his lifestyle choice before there was a him and I. I chose to be a part of it and knew what I would be getting into, and even though it is hard I still continue to wait for the next time I get to see him because I know the moment I get to hug him and feel his touch that the waiting is always worth it.