I'm A Truck Driver's Girlfriend...
I'm dating a truck driver. This is not something I ever, in a million years, thought that I would do. Several years ago, I was married. The man I chose to marry turned out to be a loser, a user, and a cheater. He left me with massive trust issues, and therefore the idea of being with a man who is consistently not here and generally in a position to do lots of things and get away with them did not appeal to me. Then I met D.
D is my boyfriend. He is an amazing man. Skilled at what he does, sensitive to my needs and feelings even when I wish he wasn't, loving, honest, and totally trustworthy. From the very moment I met him, I knew I could trust him. I never doubted that for an instant.
So, now, here I am. In a very serious relationship with a man I only get to see for a few days once or twice a month, if I'm lucky. We spend tons of time on the phone, as that is our only means of contact and communication. I mean, there's e-mail and such, but it's not the same as hearing each other's voice.
It's hard. I miss him all the time. When he leaves, it's the worst. I try to hold back the tears until he's gone, usually unsuccessfully. I want to send him off with a smile, not bring him down. Once he's out of sight, I do break down. The first few days are the hardest. I get very depressed, wishing he was home, not sleeping well, not eating, unable to focus and concentrate on the simplest of tasks. After the first 2-3 days, things get somewhat better. Eventually, I feel back to normal, but I suspect that is mostly excitement at knowing that it's closer to him getting home again.
He's my best friend, the love of my life, my soulmate. He's everything that's important to me (besides my kids), and as hard as this life is, I wouldn't give him up for anything. I'll tough it out and deal with this simply because I love him and he is worth this. As they say...the only thing tougher than a trucker is a trucker's wife. Someday, I hope to be his wife and not just his girlfriend.