My Little StoryI'm very glad to be here and share alittle about myself to you all! My name is Serena im 16 and in March 25 will be 17 i did my age as 18 when i joined,because i was restricted to what i can do,i'm half Chinese and half Japenese..my parants and my 6 sisters and 2 brothers are born in United kingdom but the rest of my relatives live in Shanghai, China.
Ok!! here comes the hard stuff..when I was born, doctors weren't sure if I was a boy with a small penis or a girl with a large clitoris that had a small vaginal opening. Either way, my body wasn't normal in the medical sense. My parents were told that my body could be fixed,and they was told i had to be fixed for me to live a normal life. The surgery to normalize my genitals should be done quickly, so that I would have no memory of it while i was very young. My parants were told as well not to tell anyone about how i was born. I would be fine, they were reassured, as long as they kept the truth from me.
"There were always men in white coats parading through the exam room to look at my private parts.They often talked about my body as if my hearing wasn't normal either, never talking to me, only about me.
My earliest memories are about being different, a freak that needed to be fixed. I learned early that whatever was wrong with my body shouldn't be talked about. Constantly hearing, ( You're fine ) you're normal, it never made me feel that way.
I learned to live with my body the best i could drowning in dishonesty while striving to be normal, I am only now beginning to shed the shame and secrecy in my post.I also now understand that cutting genitals or being operated on doesn't change or make our gender. I know that repeated childhood traumas, and secrecy and shame shape us as we grow into adults. I know there is more value to our bodies than the ability to have babies. Consent and choice are taken away when early genital surgeries are performed on other intersex people.I also know that adults who escaped early genital surgery experienced their own trauma of growing up different but for me reading other peoples stories here and on the net..i am thankful my parants never let no one took a knife to my genitals
Secondly, the medical community views the world in terms of normal and abnormal. Anything abnormal must be corrected. I feel this is very wrong,I feel the medical community should let us have the chose to either be operated on or not be operated on... I've already suffered from bullies at school and out of school to.Yes it does hurt me very deeply being treated badly by those that do not understand me,I am very lucky that i have a large loving family that suport me,my mother to is always there for me as i do have many bad days more so than good ones.
I'm not sure what life will bring me,but i will do my up most to rise above all that life brings my way.
Thanks for reading my story
Serena W :)
princesserena 18-21, F 56 Responses 41 Mar 3, 2012