I Am a True Hermaphrodite
I woke up today not blonde and beautiful,rich and healthy.I woke up as Chris.Puffy eyed and head swollen from 3 days of a broken heart.My room,a stinky mess.I had energy today,came from out of nowhere as I was just drinking water.I had a few apples,the fibre seemed to fill me up.
I got on twitter looking for her like a stalker.Just wanting to see her words as if I could vision her there,her face,her smile,sitting at her desk,tweeting xD So wierd,i have never thought of myself to be so...invasive? of ones privacy.Im not sure what im doing exactly,just moving around,letting my mind take over while my body recovers.
Im only shaking now ,sweating,no doubt im losing salt,but so far im fine.Kaitlyn calls tonite wanting me to stop by for my medicine.I dont like those shots.Theres an alternative,but im already taking testosterone shots so,Im just going to wing it day by day.
Im going to try and go back to work tomorrow as I cant stay at home crying...I have to tell myself that I had told Ashley I would save up and work hard so I could buy her a house.I cant do that sitting at home.
Its strange,I walk around,tried to go out with friends,but came back home because i couldnt concentrate on anything else.I carried my cell phone around protecting it from my friends who kept trying to take it away wanting me to be the Old Chris but something happened to him/her,me...Im not sure what.but something happened.
Im still here......what to do where to go i dont know.have to work,try and do something other than cry.....and die....
I got on twitter looking for her like a stalker.Just wanting to see her words as if I could vision her there,her face,her smile,sitting at her desk,tweeting xD So wierd,i have never thought of myself to be so...invasive? of ones privacy.Im not sure what im doing exactly,just moving around,letting my mind take over while my body recovers.
Im only shaking now ,sweating,no doubt im losing salt,but so far im fine.Kaitlyn calls tonite wanting me to stop by for my medicine.I dont like those shots.Theres an alternative,but im already taking testosterone shots so,Im just going to wing it day by day.
Im going to try and go back to work tomorrow as I cant stay at home crying...I have to tell myself that I had told Ashley I would save up and work hard so I could buy her a house.I cant do that sitting at home.
Its strange,I walk around,tried to go out with friends,but came back home because i couldnt concentrate on anything else.I carried my cell phone around protecting it from my friends who kept trying to take it away wanting me to be the Old Chris but something happened to him/her,me...Im not sure what.but something happened.
Im still here......what to do where to go i dont know.have to work,try and do something other than cry.....and die....
By:
PodaDixa
Age:
36-40
,
Male
