Written on June 2nd, 2011
Ok..so most of you know that John and I have been friends for 3 years and dated for a year.. Well our relationship was awesome, and then there was the military..I had plans on going to the air force academy, but after the experiences with my boyfriend I dont think that I want to even take that route..to the point I enrolled in a 4 year university, and I made up my mind to go to college and not the military. My guy has turned into a hardcore MONSTER....I hate it...He was so sweet and polite and just the ideal boyfriend, but since he has been in the military, i dont know what they teach them, but he has a black hole where his heart used to be. They are around...well let me speak only on him, but the guys there are all like horny pups all I hear is about oh man this girl and that girl. John was in Korea for a year and he came home, 3 weeks ago and we spent 1 day together out of the three weeks...so I'm hot...and he left today for Germany, he barely arrived there and the guys are telling him about some female and pool parties..I am beyond sick of this **** (excuse my french) I love him, but Im not stupid..I know he cares about me and everything, but he cant resist the urges, its kind of understandable, because we are both young he's a guy thousands of miles away not to mention this 2 year assignment in Germany. Ugh....We have gotten into more arguments and break ups in the past couple months than we have in the past 3 years..Im just tired of dealing with it..idk what to do.