My boyfriend and I have been talking for about 10 months now. He lived in Florida and I live in Indiana. I met Brandon through my bestfriend. My bestfriends name is Megan and we were extremly close, i spent everyday with her at her house and i became part of her family, it wasnt until about 2 years after i became friends with megan when she told me she had another brother that lived in Florida and he was coming to Indiana for Christmas to visit. This came as a shock to me because i had no idea, she had never mentioned him before. When he got to Indiana he spent alot of time with old friends and with me working the busy holiday season at bath and body works i had yet to meet him. One morning i got called into work early and when i was trying to leave megans house my car wouldnt start. I called my mom to come over and jump my car and of course we had no idea what the hell we were doing lol. About 15mins into sitting there trying to figure was to jump my car, Brandon pulled up in his truck and asked us if we needed help.... i literally ran back inside the house to wake up megan and ask her why she never told me her brother was so hot. I had just got out of a 4 year relationship and i was super shy and awkward around boys so megan thought it would be funny to tell Brandon what i said. He jokingly messaged me on facebook to ask me if me car was running and proceeded to tell me that he thought i was cute. I was so embarassed and called megan to yell at her... which she also told Brandon. We laughed about it for awhile and never thought it would turn into something. After Brandon left Indiana in Dec we continued to talk and Megan decided that she didnt think it was funny anymore and was mad because i was still talking to him. He came back to visit in June and we hung out a couple of times which i didnt mention to megan because i didnt feel like arguing. she later found out and was pissed. Brandon and I really started to like eachother alot and once he left Indiana in June we still continued to talk. I was going through alot over those past 10 months with my ex because i didnt want to let go of a 4 year relationship. I tried to rekindle the flame which was a dumb idea and it ended bad. I spent the last 4 months of my senior year in consoling and therapy because of the way i was treating and trying to cope with the break up which Brandon talked me through every step of the way. I expected him to get annoyed with the situation, but he didnt. i called and cried to him almost everynight and he never once got upset with me about it, he told me everything would be okay and he would give me advice, he was my rock. So when he did visit in June we were super excited to see eachother and him helping me through such a challenging situation just made me even more drawn to him. Like i said, we continued to talk after he left in June and we spent the next 2 months skyping everynight and falling for eachother. He came back this sept to visit for an entire month this time. the first few times we hung out were kind of awkward because we had to express our feelings in real life and not via skype lol. After the first few days everything just felt so right and i cant remember the last time i was that happy. megan was PISSED and so was her family when they realized that Brandon and I were getting serious. I had always been sooooo close to megan and her family and all of a sudden megan wants nothing to do with me and her family was the same way. They claimed i was untrustworthy and disrespectful which really hurt me because i had always bent over backwards for that family and they did the same for me. Brandon and I made it "offial" Sept 14 and just as i thought megan and her family couldnt treat me any worse i was wrong. I feel in love with Brandon, it feels so wonderful finally being in a mature and healthy relationship and I'm sorry, i love Megan to death but would a BESTFRIEND really treat me like that only because i was dating her brother?! i honestly thought Megan and her family would be happy for me, they always told me i deserved better than what i had and that they prayed for me to be happy again but apparently... only under their circumstances. Brandon moved away from home when he was 18 because he could not get along with his dad and his step mom, he is now 22. He had no contact with his family when he moved away, thats how bad home life was for him and when he saw his family treating me this way and himself he was over it... again! he basically stayed at my house the entire month he was here. He would stay at my house until i fell asleep (4 or 5 in the morning) go home to sleep & work for a few hours and come right back. I cant express how much i have fallen for Brandon, i love him very much and he means alot to me. Sunday was the last day i actually got to spend with him before he had to be at a hotel in indy. We spent the day with my family and celebrated with cake and pizza and had a great time. my family loves Brandon just as much as i do which makes me sooooo happy because that has never been the case for me, my family hated my ex. I dropped him off at the recruiting office monday around 11:00am and sat with him until the bus came, i tried to hold it in but i broke down and cried even though i would be in indy in a fews hours to have dinner with him. My mom and grandma came with me to Indy to visit Brandon. We went to clayterris and walked around and went to red robin for dinner. Brandon was very quite and wasnt acting like himself, he was nervous. we dropped him back off at the hotel and i walked in with him to say goodbye, it was so hard, i cried once again and of course Brandon held it together and told me everything would be okay. I got a phone call this morning at 4am when he got his wake up call, he said he felt sick and was extremly nervous, we talked for about 15mins and he had to get off the phone to take care of some things before he left. he got sworn in at 9:45 this morning and he called me afterwards and let me know how it went. his flight was suppose to leave around 1 but ended up being delayed until 5:10pm. we texted pretty much all day and he called me like every hour, i was so happy that i got so extra time to talk to him. he called me before he got on the plane and said he was allowed to make a call when he arrived to let me know he made it there safe. He called, i bawled. i just really hit me that that was the last time i would hear his voice for awhile. We got off the phone and i just sat in my room crying for a good 20mins and my phone rings again... it was Brandon and i swear my heart dropped when i saw his name pop up on the phone. He said he was allowed to talk for about 30mins while he was on the bus to meps. after our 30min conversation of crying we said our goodbyes and i've just been sitting here crying. I feel so pathetic. What makes it even harder is that i really dont have a lot of friends, megan was my BESTfriend and the only person i could talk to and now she wants nothing to do with me. I always called Brandon when i was feelings low and now i cant do that. I sucks, bad! i am very alone right now... I write him a letter everytime i start feeling really low and saving them in a folder until he sends me the address i can send the letters to. It's so hard not being able to talk to him. i texted megan just to conversate for awhile, i didnt even mention Brandon, just asked how her night was and it ended up with her being completely rude towards me. I feel horrible, i literally have noone to talk to. this is going to be the hardest 2 months ever! i have a feelings im going to be a wreck until i get that first letter or phone call and i probably still wont cope well even after that. i figured this blog would help me cope and relate with other girls that are going through the same thing as me. I miss Brandon so much already and i love him to death! We have talked about or future and i honestly believe we are in it for the long run. i'm not going to get so weak to the point where i just want to end the relationship, ever! but i could really really use someone to talk to. any advice, comments, experiences or nice words would be greatly apperciated!