Novemeber 29th - January 27th ... Heres Hoping It Flys

So for a few years I did alot of promotional modeling. Last year I was working MotoGp at the Indianapolis Speedway when I saw a guy walking towards the tent I was working and felt like i HAD to be near him. He came and stood next to me, but never uttered a word, and when he walked away kept turning around to stare. I waved to him, but nothing. A couple hours later the fact he didnt come say hi was driving me insane ((which was not the norm, most of the time all we girls want at these events is for dudes to leave us alone)) and fate smiled upon me and there he was again. I wasnt letting go this time. I threw my hula hoop down ((lol)) and took off running after him to ask why he didnt come talk to me. After exchanging numbers, we texted the whole night away. I learned we were a year to the date apart ((January 5th--I have a year on him)) and that he went to Vincennes University .... a 3 hour drive from home for me. 16 months, a few trudges through what seemed like hell, and 40000 miles on a new care later, were still together. We had our longest split of about 3 weeks over the summer, and after not talking the entire time, we decided to have dinner one night. As soon as I set eyes on him. it was clear that the feelings that rushed over me the first time I saw him had gone nowhere, and he informed me he felt the same. One week later, we decided we were either going to give it our all or let it go, and we moved in together. That was in August. On November 29th he left for Lackland AFB. And Im only half of a former whole without him here.

I knew it was coming. He started telling me it was something he wanted to do about two months into our relationship, and I initially left him. I told him I respected his dreams, but I knew myself and it was something I could not go through. One week later he showed up at my work. We talked and he asked if I would be willing to compromise ... stay with him and he would do reserves instead of going active in the air force. I still didnt like the idea of being apart for 4 months, but if he was willing to compromise a dream of his, then I knew he was worth holding onto. He and I have been through alot since then, and we always find a way back to each other. When we signed the lease on our apartment, we agreed there was no letting go this time. And I can honestly say we both give US everything we have.

I never thought I'd find good come out of this experience, but it seems thus far, his time in Basic Training is making our relationship even stronger. Hes always been somewhat closed off with his feelings, and Sunday when I recieved my first phone call he relayed to me the exact same things I have been feeling since he left. He told me he has literally thought about me every second that he has been there and being away from me is killing him. It was hard to hear him so upset, but it was incredible to know he is going through the exact same emotions that I am. He did say it was tougher than he thought it would be =( Ive heard from others that the phone calls tend to be an every Sunday thing, and Im really hoping thats the case, because hearing his voice is the only reason Ive made it through this week. Those first few days without him were my equivelant of hell.

He told me he had sent home his 'Safe Arrival' card ... but Im pretty sure he had the wrong zip code for our apartment, and I havent yet recieved it. Have any of you ladies?? January 27th is graduation ... only 51 days till I can embrace a man in uniform =) I just think its going to be impossible to let go again. Oh ladies, youll be happy to hear that he said, and I quote, "Everyone down here has girlfriends and thats all we talk about" Im hoping to get to know you ladies, and look forward to meeting you in Texas soon!