Don't Know What To Expect.

So, I am really excited to be moving down near the base, but lately I've been feeling scared as well.
1. He's been working a lot and I feel like we haven't been able to talk as much. Once I get down there, I'm hoping it's different. I'll be able to actually see him. And we are getting married, so that is a positive thing.
2. I'm scared that once I do get settled into the Apartment and we get married, he might get deployed. I guess people are talking about it and it's kind of freaking me out a bit. That's too soon. At least wait till February :/ (our anniversary and his birthday are in January.. and I'd love to spend them with him. As well as the holidays..)
3. What if I get down there, and nowhere is hiring. My first main goal is to get a job down there, but what if I am not good enough? What if I apply to colleges and I don't get accepted into any? I never took any SATs because I always wanted to be a Chef. I thought I was going to stick with it and I was going to go to Johnson and Wales for it (you don't need to take SATs for that school), but I found that cooking is just not my thing. I may be good at it, but I can't see myself doing it for the rest of my life. I really want to be an elementary teacher. So I'm hopping I can get into a nice college that will help me with that.
4. Making friends. I'm getting to know his friends a little more, but I want to become friends with people outside the Military.. Although, I do want plenty that know what I'm going through, so I'm really excited to meet a few of the girlfriends and wives of his friends. But yet, I am a shy person..

I just hope everything turns out fine..I've been so stressed lately. I've been sick for the past week on and off because of it..and it's caused my depression to come back. Tony wants to help me as much as he can...but I just have a feeling none of this can be solved until I get down there and just see what happens..
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18-21, F
1 Response Sep 20, 2012

I would reccommend taking your ACTs or SATs-- you can register through the website! Also, I know-- all that stuff is super scary. I haven't even started planning moving up there yet and I'm still super worried about it. :P But it'll be okay! Even if he does get deployed, at least you'll have new friends to keep you company, and I'm sure you can at least get a job SOMEWHERE. Waiting tables or something at least. <3

Yeah I was thinking about doing that, and yes thankfully, tony says there are a ton of nice people down there that already want to be my friend and I barely know them! haha. I would love to wait tables, at least until I finish with college and get a nice teaching job.. I've done it before and it's a stress-free, easy job. :)