Freaking OutSo I've been with my boyfriend for a year now and while that does not sound like whole lot of time it's the most serious and real relationship I've ever been in (even though I have been in longer). We both have big plans for our future and plan to be together forever. He leaves for basic in 3 months. Then after that he goes to tech school for 2 years. I don't even know when the next time I will see him again will be. We have plans for me to come to him when he is in tech school and get my own apartment this way I can like be there with him even though we don't know how often he will have free time. His job will most likely require him to go overseas but he wants to get married before that, like right after he is done with school. I'm just so nervous and scared because he hasn't even left yet and I'm freaking out. For over a year we have been together every single day. Now by the time april rolls around we'll be lucky if we see each other every couple of months I guess. I'm freaking out and I think I'm ruining our last moments together right now. I just can't help but cry all the time and always bring it up in conversation. I'm so scared we won't make it through all of us. We have to. He's my everything and was there for me in ways I can't even describe when Hurricane Sandy ruined my house. I'm scared he'll forget about me or something. I know it's crazy but I've never experienced something like this in my whole life. I just hope I don't have some kind of breakdown when he actually does leave.
ritzallover 22-25, F 2 Responses 0 Jan 18, 2013