Sleepless and Anxious

Hi everyone. I'm new to this site but I'm at a place where I really need people who are going through/went through what I currently am & who actually understand it. My boyfriend and I have been together for 10 months but we've known each other our whole lives. He left for basic in December & has 3 weeks left to go. I'm beginning to see the light at the end of the tunnel but I'm also beginning to become more & more anxious. Every night it takes me at least and hour to fall asleep (and that's by the time I decide to actually lay down) because my mind just keeps reliving memories & thinking of what it'll be like when I finally get to see him again. He is on my mind 24/7. I'm excited but I'm also exhausted from the constant worry and wonder of how he's doing or what he's up to. He has been choosing to call me over his parents the last 2 weeks so for that I feel bad, but I'm also thankful. His parents & I have a great relationship, but I don't feel like I can just go running to them with all of this. I could really use support from this community. Thank you for taking the time to read this, I appreciate it.
airricka airricka
18-21, F
2 Responses Jan 21, 2013

If you don't get a call saying he's hurt or sick I promise he's fine =) They get really tired, have to eat fast so they get hungry in the day and don't get a ton of sleep but they adapt pretty quickly. Overall my guy said it wasn't that bad. I know how you guys feel but graduation is amazing and you won't even remember those hard nights when you see him run by during the Airman's run or when you get to tap him out and hug him for the first time at the coin ceremony =) Keep pushing.

I keep hearing about how amazing graduation is, and I cannot wait! I just know when I get to see him I'm going to get all sorts of emotional. Thank you!

I haven't experienced anything like it since. They don't make as big of a deal about things once you're out of BMT. Enjoy!

I can relate a lot. Although my boyfriend and I haven't been together long, I've know him since I was a baby. We've been next door neighbors all our lives. I unfortunately haven't heard anything from him yet.. He called his parents two Sundays ago and I guess didn't get his phone call last night because they said they didn't hear from him. Sleep has been rough for me too. I thought it was getting better but lately I've been having the worst nightmares every night! We just have to stay positive even though its hard at times. He thinks about you just as much as you think of him I'm sure. Just have to think.. 3 more Mondays left!

I know exactly what you mean with the nightmares! It's hard to get your mind to relax & when it finally does, it doesn't. 3 more Mondays is a fantastic way to look at it! Thank you for your support.