Well looks like Im back to using this site. I stopped for the most part once we got married and moved to his duty station together. But this morning he told me that hes deploying. Ive been crying for hours non stop, my head hurt, my entire body hurts, i feel like im going to puke. I dont even want advice anymore because all im being told is "this is military life, you are strong, you can do it." Well i dont want to do it, i dont want to be strong, i dont want him to go. I want my marriage to just be a marriage I want my husband to stay home with me. This freaking sucks!