Well we got the news yesterday, Jacob didn't get into the af academy to play football. He is very disappointed. My heart is broken for him. I hate seeing him down. But a part of me is relieved. Because he wont be moving to Colorado for four years. Is that wrong of me? To feel a sense of happiness about this? Off course I haven't told him how I feel. But it would have taken such a toll on our relationship. Am I a horrible girlfriend?