Could Not Feel More Alone

OK so I'm new to this whole support thing or whatever, I just finally caved and decided that I do in-fact actually need it and this is not an easy thing to do. My boyfriend is a Pararescue Jumper so WOOOO AF Special Forces you would think right? NO! I love what he does and that he loves his job and I support him fully and I'm extremely proud of him. It's just that he's been doing this for so long he's falling apart, mentally and physically and it is putting a strain on our relationship. I love him with all my heart, but it just gets harder and harder for him to be away and harder for me to deal with. He got hurt on his last assignment, he tore his ACL, MCL AND LCL, so his knee was pretty much useless all because 2 guys in his unit weren't doing their job. WONDERFUL.....hes now away on another assignment since he's "better" and all and I'm worried sick about him, I go crazy everyday waiting for a call or a text. The last thing i heard from him was "hey angel, I'm heading out for a few weeks, I'll text and call as best I can. I just wanted to let you know. I Love you angel. gotta go." That was 2 sundays ago. We have been through this before and even so...I can't help but worry and I know i need to be strong but I think his last assignment gave me a huge scare. I don't know...this is mostly just rambling to get stuff off my chest...if you guys have any words of encouragement or advice that would be awesome because I'm in dire need of it at the moment...

pjsgirl pjsgirl
22-25, F
4 Responses Mar 25, 2009

start writing letters to each other, helps develop patience

hey new at this website u commented on my story so ill comment on urs...<br />
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one of my fav quotes that i came across was god found some of the strongest women and made their match with an airman...<br />
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we are strong, AIRMAN GIRLFRIEND STRONG lol..<br />
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i know we are all worried about our men, but its their choice, and u can bet ur bottom, their thinkin of us 24/7, and can't wait to kiss us again, so he is going to make sure he's safe so he can get one more kiss from ya...<br />
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yeah i hate how u never know when ur goin to get a call...i misses 2 of his sucks...he'll call soon

I commend you for what you go through,just stay strong.

Be strong. Distance makes the heart grow stronger and believe me you would know if something happend to him. Don't worry yourself sick. This is a great place to vent. If you need anything I am here.x