Not Exactly

My story is a little bit different. I dated Brandon for about 5 months back in the spring of 07. It was a perfect relationship but I ended it because I thought I wasn't over my ex. I think it also somewhat has to do with the fact that I had graduated high school and was ready to move out of the state. Anyways, I broke up with him and he didn't talk to me for months. Finally, we spoke and became friends. I left for San Antonio in January 08 for school and I saw him right before I left. All of my feelings for him came back but I ignored them because I felt I was ready for a new life 1200 miles away from where I grew up.

I saw him by chance when I was back home visiting in May. He changed my mom's oil. lol It was great seeing him and I definitely felt something but I ignored it once again. He called me every once and a while to see how things were going. I also saw him in December. This is when things changed. He kissed me for the first time since we broke up. At that moment I knew that I wanted him back. I didn't talk to him about it until about a week later when I was back in San Antonio. I told him that I wanted to date him again. He didn't tell me no, but he said it wasn't the right time because he was joining the air force and just had a lot of things going on. That is not what I wanted to hear, but I respected him for it.

I saw him again in the beginning of March. It was a last minute trip back home but I saw him twice while I was there. It was absolutely perfect. He didn't hesitate to show affection towards me in public. We hung out with all of him friends and it was completely normal. While I was laying in his arms I felt so completely happy. I didn't want it to end. 

We still haven't gotten back together and we haven't talked about it since December. I don't want to bring it up again because I'm afraid he will say no. My best friend, that lived with me when we dated, and hung out with us in March said that she can tell that he definitely wants me but he is being cautious. I sure hope she is right!

He left for basic at Lackland on April 7th. It's crazy that I moved 1200 miles away from our hometown (near Chicago) and over a year later he decides to come here for the Air Force. Maybe everything does happen for a reason! I got my first letter from him yesterday! I didn't even know if he was going to write me because I am not his girlfriend or anything. I am so glad he did though. Part of me was really wishing he would mention something about us being together, but he didn't. At least I got something though! Maybe he will say more in his next letter!

FeistyRoadrunner FeistyRoadrunner
18-21, F
6 Responses May 1, 2009

i deff feel your pain i wish nothinqq buh the best chicka ! =]

Thanks so much for all of your advice!! haha Now that you mention it, you are totally right about the privacy thing. I think I will stay on the safe side and make him wait to see it in person. :) Good luck to all of you too!!

lol you could send him that but my friend simon had a buddy in his flight get the "sexy picture" of his girlfriend passed around the flight! and they hold your care packages until they graduate and they get alot of **** for it. so during tech school when he has more privacy would be a better time for that haha=P I hope things work out for you both!

Wait till after basic. He's got a lot on his plate right now. It's probably ok to send him care packages, but remember that he'll have no privacy so be sure to take that into consideration. And yes, by care packages I meant sexy things... or cookies.

I already sent him a letter out this morning! My brother was in the marines and he wrote my mom every chance he got. My mother insisted that I send one right away. haha :) Thank you for the good luck wishes! It's definitely encouraging!

I hope he does. I wish you luck! Don't forget to write him back once you can. I have several friends that are deployed right now and one of the first things they ask me is when their next card is coming. Again good luck to you.