I Don't Know Why...
this week has been extra tough for me. I honestly am so needy I feel horrible. I just keep telling him how much I love him and stuff.
what happened I guess is that he told me he is going to go get a sandy buttcrack as he calls it lol. and it came early, but then he never left.....all that happened within one week. now all I can do is tell him how much I love him and I feel so silly gloming on him like this. I know he's being nice and not saying anything, but it's like sheesh. And the stress is getting to him, too, he forgot to call me when we weren't able to talk a couple times on skype...I was like oi.
so I have all the trust in the world for him, but with my parent's relationship, my mom taught me to believe every man cheats. I am NOT having second thoughts, I do NOT doubt him, but sometimes it just pops into my mind that maybe this and this because he is with a girl right now, kind of thing. I love him with all my heart, and I'd really like to stop that train of thought...I know he would never ever cheat on me. He is so good to me and loves me sooo much. It's all about me and how I'm his girl :) I miss him
so there's my insecurity needy rant and I really really hope this little phase goes away soon, because I love him so much :)