well ladies my bf and I are over. I loved him with everything and i still do but he has emotionally destroyed me. I have tried over a year to get him to open up to me and he couldnt. Its really sad and he is a very messed up guy. He knows this.. he is like numb to everything.. He loved me and he cared about me but he refused to show it. He said the words but ZERO ACTION.. when i say ZERO i mean it.. i have felt like i have been dating a brick for the past 2 months.. he is the same way with his mom and family. he is just very cold. Hes mom will say I love you and he will answer K. she has called me crying... but i wanted to spend my life with this man. but i cant have a happy life with someone with no feelings. so i have to be strong enough to let him go on his own and see what he does. and I told him 10000000 times that i would help him and be whatever he needed and every time he would say im fine ill ttyl... i have cried for a month every night and i cant allow myself to stay with someone that does that to me and it doesnt effect him.. when i asked him if he felt bad he said well not really i dont feel anything. but i do kinda feel like a jerk. that crushed me.. then i told him i was gone and 100% out of his life he would never hear from me again. i would say goodbye to his family and that i wished him the best but i need to be strong and make myself happy. ive tried to make him happy for a year and i cant :[ he then cried and all he said was i dont want to loose you but i dont want to be your bf cuz you are an amazing girl and LOOSING YOU IS A HUGE MISTAKE but you dont deserve to be treated like ****.. i said well its in your hands and i really really hope you pull through. he said goodnight and hung up.. ive cried for 10 hours and i dont know where my life will take me... but
i love you girls and i could never have made it this far without you ladies.. i am stilll gunna come on here sometimes and stay close with you girls cuz i need you now more than ever.... i have been and AF gf for over a year and i hope i still can help you girls!!
love you all