Completely Tired Of Being Optimistic
it's been a really long time since i've posted my own story on here...mostly because i've begun to face facts of living an AFGF life & am pretty much used to coming to terms with things on my own
however...i'm really over doing that at this moment.
i'm used to being "the rock" in my relationship & being the person that says "things will work out" & "everything happens for the reason" but i'm really over saying that now too.
Michael was supposed to graduate from tech school on Feb. 5th which means he would have been on the 8th. i dealt with him not being able to come home because he didn't have leave because he used it during Exodus & he said he had to stay at Sheppard doing details for another week & then he could go home. After some arguing, we booked tickets for the 12th... we've been so excited & planning what we're going to do when he comes home, all the little "dates" we'll go on before he moves to Alaska on March 1st.
Well all this lovely snow that everyone else in the country seems to be enjoying is now going to (more than likely) ruin him coming home tomorrow. Seeing as all of the flights out of (the world's smallest airport) Wichita Falls to Dallas Ft. Worth were cancelled today & will probably be cancelled tomorrow, since they're supposed to get 9 more inches of snow...
I don't really know why i'm writing this besides to complain since i refuse to complain to him or our families. It just sucks knowing there is absolutely NOTHING i can do to help the situation at all.
Normally i love the AF, but lately i'm not a big fan. It's times like these that i really question how i can make a relationship like this work if our whole lives its always going to be like this... & i'm just supposed to be "okay" with it???!