Missing My Baby

Me and my boyfriend Ryan have been together for 2 1/2 years. He had been in and out of different jobs for the past 2 years and 6 months ago he decided to join the Air Force. He had always wanted to join the military and be a Marine but his family convinced him the Air Force was the way to go.  When he joined the Air Force I felt relief knowing that he would be safer and better off. Honestly I never approved it, but he told me he had to and that this wasn't just for him it was for OUR future. The past 2 1/2 years we had only been apart  once for 3 days and we missed each other so much but we talked and texted all day,and every night. We are waiting for me to finish my Bachelors Degree to get married, I got a promise ring from him 1 year ago, I got him one before he left. Ryan is really the man for me we are so much alike hes my best friend, I know he truly loves me I cant see myself with anyone else.

6 months ago I thought February 9, 2010 would  never be here and that we would have plenty of time to be together. And it wasn't like that at all time flew by and before i knew it we were saying goodbye. It was last Monday and that Goodbye keeps replaying in my head. His parents hugged him and said goodbye and lastly i said Goodbye and I told him "I love you so much, Im so proud of you baby don't worry about me ill be okay, and Ill wait for you all eternity if i have to" and he said  "okay baby I love you, See you later". His mom rolled down the window and said "I love you, honey" he covered his face and bowed his head down she said "He's crying" I couldn't look at him. While we drove away she started screaming and cried for 20 minutes straight, I cried so much that day. He called me on Tuesday night when he arrived at Lackland AFB and i heard his voice cracking and i cried all night. On Wednesday I went over to his parents house Ryan had bought me some flowers, and a candle for Valentines Day with a card that said "Sorry im not here, Be with me forever, See you soon." Less then 20 minutes when I got there he called to give us his mailing address he sounded so excited when he talked to me, and I was so happy to hear his voice.

That was the last time I talked to him, I sent him a letter on Friday I decided to write him a letter every night. This is the hardest thing Ive ever been through im so in love with him, I miss him so much it hurts so bad. I just wanna be with him and time is going by so slowly Im trying to be strong but I cant its so hard. I just want it to be April already so I can see my baby. 

ILoveMyFlyboy ILoveMyFlyboy
18-21, F
9 Responses Feb 14, 2010

Welcome to the group AirmanFutureWife, Me and my boyfriend have got closer I think, my advice to you would be write him as much as you can, I write everyday it makes me feel like Im talking to Ryan which makes me feel a lot better. Once they are in time does fly by. Just try to keep very busy and stay positive. Im here for you whenever you need to talk.

hii everyone, im new to this. <br />
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im happy i found this site , <br />
well my boyfriend and i dated for almost 2 years and he's leaving at the end of this month to basic training and whatever happens from there..i dont know...i dont know what to expect and how to feel. I have read from others that keep writing to each other will make things fly by quicker.. i cant see that happening . And does feelings change through out the years.. like not feeling the same for each other ?? fill me in please.

heyyy welcome!! my boyfriend left on the 2nd and I thought I was going to loose it!! but things will get better. Ive just been keeping busy like crazy. I have a new found love for working out. lol. It relieves alottt of stress and emotions built up! Just keep your head, he doesnt want you to be sad...you have to be strong for him and his family. Thats all I try to keep in my head. Make him proud. And vent to us when you have to..we are ALL great listeners. =)

oh girl i know exactly what you're saying and how you're feeling :( but like all the girls said it WILL get easier and right now it seems like forever but next wednesday I will be on a flight to go see my man graduate and looking back it wasn't that long at alllll. and anytime you get down come here because chances are at least one of us will be on to respond to you. I know being on here made me feel so much better, countless times when I felt like I was going to break down. In the end it will all be worth it too. I feel my relationship with Chris is so much stronger and I have learned to appreciate my time with him more. No more fights! lol

Welcome to the group.. My name is rachel! You and your boyfriend sound so cute! Actually your boyfriend sounds like mine too.. but he told me that he was joining for OUR future, and he would not be doing it if it wasn't for me. the best advice i can give is to WRITE WRITE WRITE! Try to be really encouraging, and tell him how proud you are of him! You can send him picures too.... He would love getting them.. I have been sending my boyfriend ( he is in the 6th week of boot camp right now), lyrics, i sent him cards, but don't send him musical cards.. they will get into trouble. It does get better like timmo103007 said. These girls on here are great, so don't be afriad to ask anything at all.! Keep your head up girl!=)

Oh my gosh your boyfriend sounds a lot like mine what with wanting to be in the miliatry since he was little and be a marine..AND being in and out of jobs the past couple of months. We all convinced him that if it was the military he was interested in the Air Force was the way to go and that's the way he went lol. He'll be done here in 11 days but I totally know how you feel. My boyfriend came to my house before he left to go stay at a nearby base before he left for Texas and it was seriously one of the hardest things i've ever had to do. :( BUT the next two months will seem like forever day to day, but whenever you look back you think..man that went pretty quick now that I think about it. Trust me it'll get WAY better! Just keep your head up. It'll all be beneficial in the long run! and the Valentines Day present.. SO CUTE. sounds like you got a great guy! Write as much as you can..it'll all be over soon! :) and we're here if you ever have any questions need to vent whatever don't hesitate to talk to us!

hey guys... im soo nervous. my boyfriend leaves march 15 which exactly one month from today. how long after he left did you get his address? on sundays do you get to talk to him for 15 mins. and they can only write us on sundays is that right?

Aw, you sound really strong about the whole situation though. I have no doubt you'll make it through this. And just like how those 6 months of waiting for him to leave flew, these two months will. It'll suck at first of course but you'll get the hang of it, it already seems like you have. Just keep writing and you'll both be fine. :)

Hey! I'm Renee. I know exactly how you feel. My boyfriend of 4 years left on Feb 9th too. I just got his mailing address yesterday though and man was i happy. lol. I know it's going to be hard at first but it's all going to get better. Just write him everyday and remember to stay positive. I'm here for you whenever you need to talk =)