2 Days Till My Soldier Deploys =(
MY boyfriend and i have been together alittle over 5 months and we have deff had our share of ups and downs. I think alot of the downs has came from him being stressed out about this deployment. Cause one thing i have learned is nothing is certain with the army ever. He was set to deploy May6th he lives 5 hours from me so i had planned to go the weekend before he left. I get a call 2 days before saying his date had been moved he would leave that fri. So thursday 7 am i was in my car driving to see him one last time before he left. Saying our goodbyes was really hard and emtional for both of us cause our relationship has just started to get serious. Anyways fri morning i get a call saying his date has been pushed back to may 6th again so once again im in my car driving 5 hours to get that last time in it was even harder to say goodbye that time cause i think i have prepared myself but now just dont know what to prepare myself for cause i never know what is coming next. This will be the first soldier i have ever dated that is getting deployed and it is so new to me. I try to be strong for him cause i do not want him there worrying about me or how i am taking this. He needs to focus on keeping him safe and coming home to me. I have 2 days left before he leaves and i am falling apart in everyway. I Just dont know how to deal with not being able to pick up the phone and call him whenver i want to just say i love you or to just decide i am going to get in my car and drive to see him cause i got to missing him so much. I have known for months he was getting deployed but i guess it didnt seem real then but everyday now i know it is a day closer to him going and it breaks my heart. I have 2 kids and they adore and love him he is so good with them. even though they arent his. My son is 4 and just worships him and my daughter is 4 months and he is the only man she knows. I have sat my son down and explained to him the best i could what is happening but at 4 he doesnt really understand but he does know brian is leaving to and he cries it makes me so sad. SO many people tell me this relationship is going to fail and give my no support i am just at the point were i dont want to hear it and shut myself off from everyone .Does anyone have any advice on how to get threw this deployment and still be sane?