Break Down.

I was talking to my boyfriend on webcam tonight and had a major breakdown. I couldn't stop crying and I have no idea why. It isn't like he is deployed or in basic where I can't talk to him, I talk to him everyday, and still I had a breakdown. He asked me why I was crying and I told him that I didn't know. He sat there for a few minutes and then said babe. When I asked what he said I'm sorry. I asked him for what, and he said hurting you. That made me feel like crap because he isn't hurting me, but he always thinks he is or that he is going to. We hadn't talked about things that we normally talk about in a while and I asked him why and he said he had other things on his mind. I asked him what and he said balancing military and civilian life. I'm not sure what he means by that because I'm not going through it but I know it has to be tough. How do you ladies remind your men that you are there and that you support them no matter what? I just told him that if he ever wants to talk that im here, no matter what it is. I just don't feel like thats enough.
Sara2o1o Sara2o1o
18-21, F
3 Responses Jul 13, 2010

thanks ladies! i just needed to hear some encouraging words. im doing much better and going to see him on thursday and staying the night! so i get to fall asleep in his arms :) sooo excited.

i think we all have our break downs i know i do!<br />
but its normal and just tell him you love him and that your there for him!<br />
thats what i do .. i also send him emails while he's on mission or asleep <br />
it lets him know that i'm here thinking about him! i wish i could skype more with him <br />
but signal in Iraq isnt so good! it sucks but at least i still get to talk to him <br />
on IM i take what i can get. your going to get through this your just going <br />
to have your up's and downs i'm here if you ever need to talk <br />
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I am able, thank goodness to talk to my man every day, well most days, as well and I still have break downs. It's bound to happen to the best of us. I tell my soldier how I feel about it all the time! I leave him messages when I know he is not in the barracks or while he is sleeping so that he has something to read and put a smile on his face no matter what! Just be open with your man and tell him how you feel. My soldier says it helps him when he reads the messages because he knows that I love him and support him. He does the same for me ever once in a while when he has time and it has really opened both of us up and we talk about EVERYTHING!<br />
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Goodluck!<br />
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