It's Been Way Too Long..

i haven't done a story since december '09 just hours before my soldier came home from BCT/AIT & not seeing him for MONTHS. it is now july .. last time i saw him was January 9, 2010. his leave during the winter time before heading to his first station in ft. richardson lasted for a month and boy did that month just fly by.. i can't really go into detail right now cuz there's so much to say from what happened 7 months ago.. anyways..


supposedly he was supposed to get leave sometime in march or april but that didn't really happen.. i can't fathom how sucky that felt him not being able to come home..


and now here i am. wide awake. anxiously waiting for his arrival. he'll fly in in about 12 hours... i really should be getting rest cuz i have work in the morning.. but idk.


i've cried to my best friend already about exactly how i'm feeling... suuuuuuuuuper stoked that he's coming home.. but at the same time.. it means he'll be leaving again. and that feeling i felt when he left. very catatonic. i swear i moped around my room for days. just laying in bed, staring at the wall, missing his touch, hating that i didn't know when i would feel him right beside me again.. i don't want to feel that way, but i know it will happen again. 


does it ever get any easier?


last night i also admitted to him how i've been feeling, what i explained to my best friend cuz he said never to hide any of my feelings. he just felt guilty that i'm going through what i'm going through and that i'm always hurting. 


but i assured him that he's worth it all of this. because we have the rest of our lives ahead of us, and that i would never leave him. and that i let him know again what i promised him before he even left for basic... that i will be here for him awaiting his return, no matter how long that will be. and to stay as strong as i can for him, even if from all of my friends, i'm the only one going through such hardship. and i will always have FAITH in our relationship. we've been together for almost 1 year and 6 months. 


like his dad said to me, "if you two can get through this, you can get through anything." he's totally right. and, i love that i'm close to his family. especially his mom, cuz we miss him the most! and whenever i'm feeling down, she always knows how to comfort me and remind me what he's doing all of this for..


i'm blessed to have such wonderful people around me to comfort me in my times of need while he's away. <3


wow, i feel like i'm just rambling, but anyway, i can't sleep. even though he's only home for like two weeks, i'm going to cherish every single moment with himmmmmmmmmmmmmm :DDDDDDDDDDD

 AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! i'm ready to feel those butterflies again from the first time i saw him after bct/ait!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

stay strong ladies!

missinghim2509 missinghim2509
1 Response Jul 16, 2010

I know how you feel. My girl comes back in October for R and R for two weeks. And i HATE the goodbyes. The last time we (me and her family) dropped her off at the airport everybody cried it was so emotional i didnt want to let her go it was the hardest thing i ever had to do....stay strong girl....i try to stay strong for me and my girl its hard sometimes but it will pay glad youre getting to see him :) im jealous i want to see my soldier lol =)