Missing My Man More Than Words Can DescribeWow this feels to good to just be able to write about my story and how I am feeling. None of my friends or family understands how it feels to love somebody that you cannot see or speak to for who knows how long. I really need help with this so I am open to any advice but alright here it goes:
I am an extremely proud Army girlfriend. When my boyfriend started to throw around the idea I never thought he was seriously until he showed me his papers of when he will be leaving for BT which was November 1st (what a one year anniversary gift huh). He is at Fort Benning, Ga and so far all I have gotten was a quick 3 min phone call saying he made it safe and he loves and misses me already. I literally have cried myself to sleep so far for the past week. I have been looking for another job just to keep my mind preoccupied but so far no matter what I find myself thinking of him constantly with everything I see or any song me and him would jam out to on the radio. This is the longest we have been apart and he we still have 8 weeks to go. I'm waiting on the letter from his Sergeant so I can at least have some form of communication with him. He won't be home for thanksgiving but I'm praying for the best gift which would be him getting leave for Christmas. I love this boy and I can handle us being apart since I have always been a independent gal but the real probably is I am just so worried about him. I couldn't bare if anything happened to him. He has always had the best personality and I'm worried (from horror stories) about him changing? I know they make them army strong and into men but do they really get abusive and violent? I know this is what he really wants to do and who am I to stop him. I fully support him and every decision he makes and I made sure before he left that he knew that I am sitting here waiting for him no matter what. He had concerns about cheating but that quickly got removed from his mind. I am extremely faithful and the way he has me hooked Why would I do anything to ruin that. Blahh I love this man. Anybody that has any advice or can explain to me whats it going to be like after BT and AIT it would be wonderful. I just need somebody to talk to that understands and isn't going to look at me like I'm crazy when I tell them holding back tears my boyfriend, my best friend, is now taken by the Army.
P.S. Sorry that was so long but please read if you get it. And has this site helped you? because even if I dint get any replies just venting that little bit helped.