Worst Day Yet...

My boyfriend and I had our first fight. I feel like a complete jerk for it, too, because it was all my fault. He's in Iraq and right in the middle of it he was gone. And I'm left wondering if he just went offline to not deal with it anymore (which I wouldn't blame him) or if like all the other times, the internet there just died and he couldn't answer me. I don't even know if he got my apology. And now I have to spend the night worrying that he's still mad, wondering what he's thinking and feeling like the worst girlfriend ever for starting something I never should have.

He's the most amazing man ever...and the distance and the wait and the crappy internet- they are all worth it for him. It's just right now, they feel like the biggest obstacles in the world for everything to feel right again.