Our Story..1st Deployment For Me 3rd For Him...im Havin A Hard Time..need AdviceI met my hero Zach 3 1/2 years ago through a friend. I had just turned 18 and was a senior in high school and he was 22 in the army stationed at Fort Sill in Lawton Oklahoma. We hit it off immediately and would hang out every time he would go visit his parents who lived 3 hours away from him but only 20 mins from me. He had a gf at the time so we just became very good friends and nothing else. We had so much fun when we would hang out, never a dull moment and he made me feel so comfortable being around him. I used to be very shy so that was a big deal! I graduated in 08 and moved away to go to college. We kept in contact with each other and would text and call each other frequently. I was in school and working for awhile til I decided to screw up and move to texas with my pos boyfriend at the time. We ended up not working out and 2 months after I moved there I ended up finding out I was pregnant and decided to move back to oklahoma a month later to be closer to family. Me and my ex broke things off and We havent spoken since I found out . I started talking to Zach when I got back and we decided that we needed to go out on a date so we did . We went out to dinner and a movie and had an amazing time.He was the only person besides me who ever touched my belly while I was pregnant :) a few days after our date he was on his way to Germany where he was going to be staioned at. I was sad and upset that he was leaving but I understood.
We talked as much as we could and he eventually asked me to be his girlfriend. I was thrilled! I secretly had been in love with him for so long and always wanted to be with him it just never seemed like good timing until then. My amazing baby boy was born and then in april 2011 Zach got deployed to Afghanistan. It's been hard but nothing close to how its been this past week. He arrived home July 30th for R&R and we had the most amazing 2 weeks ever! He got to meet my 5 month old son for the 1st time and he loves that little boy . On august 15th he returned to afghanistan to finish another 8 months of deployment. I never imagined how hard it would be to go into the airport with him and leave without him. Im trying my hardest to hold myself together and be strong for him and for us but im not doing such a good job at it. The 2 weeks of R&R just made it worse. I cant sleep, or eat or get my mind off of it and I know that I have to for all 3 of us but im struggling. I try to think of the good times we've had and will have but I cant seem to get the bad thoughts or the things I see on the news out of my head. I go back to school sept 7th & that plus being a mommy i know will keep me busy but I have no military gf-wife friends and I think if I can surround myself around people who are going through what I am than it will help alot !Im so very proud of him and I want him to be proud of me and I know me being strong for him will make him proud. He's my best friend and I know that if the tables were turned he would have my back and be strong for me. I just need some advice on how to get through this so I can be that for him . sorry it was so long, Thank you so much! <3 J